I Love You

The way you look deep into my eyes,
I feel totally complete.
The way you hold my hand tight,
I feel I don’t need to compete.

The love we’re sharing each day,
Is sweet and lovely in each way
Sweet to have a person like you,
And lovely with my feelings for you

But the world around, complicate everything
Questions every feeling I feel
Tries to cover my love for you
In myriad webs of faking reel

Being honest to you-I do get strayed
I get confused in their translations of love
What is this? Why is this?—I think
And get wrapped in the dark and gloomy bluff

But then suddenly like last flicker of flame,
I hear you voice around
And your heart that I bear-I bear inside
Beats faster after listening your sound

You free me from the maddening crowd
You gimme light and sunshine
I hug you tight & grasp your hand
So that I can tell all—that you mine

Love is a word, which all have customized
“Think twice”, is what they say
But they fail to realize a simple truth
That love doesn’t go by regular way

Nothing’s too soon, nothing too late
It’s just a moment away
A moment of that deepened look, a hearty laugh
That sweeps your feet, in a single sway.

So let lose yourself & fall in love
Forgetting all the Ifs & buts
Feel the grasp, love the moment
Cause I love you - i love you so much

Whatever the relation it might be.. She is there beside me...

The deep ocean of her eyes
Grasp my breadth every time
I lose my sight to see the truth
That she can never be mine

But still I feel
I feel deep inside
That the world will conspire
To place her by my side

Like a friend, like a foe
Like a ribbon like a bow.
She shall be there with me -- in one way or two
It may not be understood by all, no not at all…
But our feelings shall be true

The relation visible to naïve eyes
Would be distant and far
But our hearts shall speak to us
In unheard rhythm of a guitar

The world around us only weighs to measure
Love or lust, is all they’ll say
They’ll customize the purity of diamonds
As mere pieces of glass clogged with clay

But the heart is true audience
To the purity of love
Which cannot be defined
In these worldly relations of bluff

Few shall understand
How love will allure
And makes every possible logic
Look totally obscure

I Am What I Am !!!

The colors I bear are my own
No need to adapt the background
Be proud of yourself, the way you are
Cause you once lost cannot be found

The world always wishes
To paint all in its hues
But the irony of situation is
That world will never be happy with you

So stop customizing your life
Your own style and your own mind
Cause when you’ll look back after the change
You’ll realize you’ve become some weird kind

So better walk your chosen road
With your head held proudly high
Following your own path step by step
With your own handful of sky

CITADEL

The citadel of love comes crashing down and down,
Dunno where it shall fall,
The crumbs of my heart are scattered apart
Dunno how far they went from wall.
This wall I’d built to save me from attacks
But it could not sustain my identity for long
Got cracked in the changing weather of love
And exposed the truth-that I’m not too strong
The changing face of the people around,
Is what baffles me the most
One moment ally, minute later a spy
Is what haunts me like a ghost
My once dear friends - I considered them my world
Turned their backs too quick too soon
Dint realize where I’ll land, where all can understand
But I landed in a lonely cocoon
An aloof soul of mine, cried and whined whole night
Gasping for a grasp of warmth & care
Unsure of my fate I stood up all night
But no one came by - left me in despair

This world I fathomed as a lovely place
But to my dismal it has lost its grace

Greed and selfish-seems most dominant
Feelings and emotions-are no longer prominent

Is this life?!--where friends go so far...
…with earned money in hand and a brand new car!!

Man invented machine -- to relax and ease
But not to replicate its stiffness and evil grease

But that’s what has become of man
Leave their friends alone in cocoons
Cared nil of the years spent together by each side
All they care are their new silver spoons

With these last thoughts in mind, and tears in my heart
I look at my citadel, fall all apart…
Piece by piece, Brick by brick
I had built the citadel of memories
Cemented with love, structured with friends
I made the citadel, through flawless amends
But today my citadel finally breaks down
Citadel I built,, --- Citadel I cherished like a crown….

Chameleon -- Changing Colours of Friendship

What exactly is friendship…
Just the number of likes, comments and friend list on Facebook does not guarantee u have tasted the fruit of friendship.

This word had always bedazzled me to such an extent that I gave al my might n my heart to make, keep & maintain the beautiful relation with my so called friends..

Friendship is more of a fancy among school and college kids, when their amateur minds are more open to bizarre ideals, and they consider the smallest gesture of care as divine. Their naïve minds speak, think and see the world painted in colors ruled by heart and ignorant to the LOGICAL & RATIONAL weighing machine.

A balance without any scales… that was the kind of life we once lived,, and what a life it was… personally speaking , friendship meant worship to me, and friend no less than god… but I was oblivious to the harsh truth, that all come and go..and in life if something is permanent – it is change… change…a small and simple word, capable of demolishing the castles of myriad and lofty dreams and expectations we had built from our childhood days… change can actually change anything and everything.. from U to me to entire world.. not criticizing ,, infact I like change.. but drastic change is my topic of concern.. change in behaviour of people towards their ONCE close friend is my concern….

People fail to understand that change is important for growth, but not for forgetting the main essence of our human relationships… change should be your boost towards success, not a stair to stampede on the people u met on the way..

Some may disagree by saying that as we grow, people become busy…. But I would like to reiterate that change is not bad, but drastic change is.. Similarly clarifying, its not the fact that to spend the same amount of time in human relations, but in respecting the human relations and giving the quality time as and when required.

Reinforcing, with my own example, my list of good friends call me almost once or twice in month, and few of them mostly call only on my birthdays… but the point is, that when ever they called, it was a conversation filled with genuine care and emotions, and can vouch on anyone, that when I’m in trouble, they’ll always be there…. I think this is what friendship truly is…

(PS : Facebook may help us in SOCIALISING but not in deepening our friendship bonds…)

Lucky Charm

What are these things...the small jinx characters with which we start associating the good & the bad going on in our lives..
Well, to break the ice, i believed a lot in them, i attributed and observed my success & failure onto these small tricks...wear the same uniform with the ink blot on the pocket to the day of exams,, to always keep my old stuff as my lucky charm...
all this and many more...

but u know wats weird, we usually start believing a superstition when something good happens with us.. i remember, i bought a nice dress but i dont know how come all the bad things happened to me...or..well... i believed it so...
but i dunno when i took my mind off this jinx, and i ended up overcoming that thought...

So the nutshell here is, that wen bad things occur due to something which u consider unlucky or something, we should just let it pass,,,4m our minds...
and if something is attributed to be ur lucky charm, well den u can obviously don it just to be on a safer side...

(PS : Excess of every thing is bad. God has created us with beautiful and enormous powers, which stay hidden in us,,rather than exploring these inner jewels we rely on the stones. So choice is urs, to explore the eternal sunshine of spotless mind or rely on the hearsay and dubious thoughts of our shrugging responsibility of our lives.)

DARE TO WEAR THE ROSE TINTED GLASS--DARE TO DREAM

The dreams in my eyes are like rose tinted glass..
Admired by the lot
As a different species n upper class
But as it breaks the truth reveals,
Glass is just a glass…rose tinted it mite be

It’s just the illusion of the colored glory
But the reality is bitter n bright
It hurts u most when u least prepared
And leaves u gasping for some might

The broken pieces if touched n dared
Shall pinch u more than ever
Shall leave the scar, n bruise the vein
With sweet pain n blood al over

But the valiant ones are those who dare
To play with the sharpest knife
They feel the pain n laugh at it
And rule the laws of life

For them the pain is the sweetest gift
The act of valiance is all that counts
For them the rosy tinted glass
Is just the way to surmount

The way to learn the way to rise
The way to cross the leveled bar
Bar which created the hurdles of thoughts
And left the achievable dreams also far

So lets al of us challenge our thoughts
Let al of us finally dare
Dare to dream through the tinted glass
And to look at eyes of life n stare.

SUNSET

As the sun dips below horizon
I see the night getting brighten.
As i hold your hand tight in my palm
I allow the breeze to set me calm
And then like a wind you set my hair
Whisper the tunes slowly in the air,
Slowly slowly i push myself
Deep into your arms' shelf
Cause this is all on whom i trust,
And rely forever for the thrust.
Now my eyes start fooling around,
Pretends to sleep & looks at ground,
And then like the sweetened bread,
You kiss on my twitched forehead;
To let me know you're always there,
Wherever i may look or stare,
And as the time slips away from hands.
I pray to God to hold these strands..
And let the lips only whisper
Ever, ever, ever and forever....

The Gift

Wen my tiny eyes,
Opened the windows of thought
They saw the lonely place
And some of the weird lot

Anxious eyes gazing at me
All stare at me across
Some with waters in their eyes
And some with smily gloss.

The scene was weird,
New and strange
Yet so calm
N pleasingly arranged.

I dunno where I truly belong,
But this surely seems a start
A beginning of a new life
A beginning on a brand new cart.

My life is the gift
I’v got from the lord
I’m sooo happy today
Cause I got the best reward.

The trees, the sun,
The moon, the stars,
The gardens & groves
Spread out so far.

World if this is
Is surely soo beautiful
And life if this is
Is surely worth bountiful

The gift iv got
Il take its good care
Il never let it lose
It never get scare

Days passed, months went by
Years came n went
And the memory of this gift
Got faded n dent
Knowledge n love
Care n emotion
Family n friends
So much of commotion.

So much to do
So much to gain
So busy to live
So much of vain

I got the best gift
The best gift of life
Bt I lost al the luster
And al I did was survive

The life is for ALL
To b live n rejoiced
but the mundane works
make the gift sooo void

So live each day
Like ur gonna die tomorrow
Or else the time shall slip
And al shall feel sorrow

And ul wish again
That u move back the time
Shud have valued the gift
The gift that was prime

Rest all is coated
In the glittery polish
Which fade with age
And leaves all to demolish

So don’t wait
Till the end comes near
Or else ul repent
Of losing ur dear—the gift.

SILENCE OF EYES

I wont say i luv u,I wont say i care
Its only the eyes, which makes my soul go bare.

Silently they sing the song of one's joy,
Joy of being dere when one is annoy,

It peeps into the heart & tells the one u care
that words are hardly important, wen eyes are allowed to stare

So let these inhibitions go away,
and let the silence sway,

among the hearts of golden friends
who've always been together through the trends

ups & downs, crests & troughs
all came & left us in cuffs

but we clinged on, to let them see
that true frnds we'll always be.

So let not allow this feeling to bound
into this world's wordy round

& let the words simply drool
to allow this golden silence to rule

Cause frnds we are-not from talks
but truly from the silent walks

ANGEL IN MY CLOSET

ANGEL IN MY CLOSET

The nights were wet,
with rolling tears.
The heart was low,
with the sudden blow.
And then right away
a smile was spread
bought me all the joys in a thread
this little angel in my life
taught me how to strive
with laughing soul & happy heart
he showed me life's meaning from the start
Always wen my heart just sank
he shook me out & emptied my tank
rescued me from all the sorrows
he gulps them all & simply swallows
Always there as a sturdy wall
he takes my life & makes it blend
with laughs & gags; tears & hopes
he's surely one to tie wid ropes
and cling on to at the times of despair
to make me climb the sturdy stair
And so each night, i thank my lord
to gift me this angel wid grace of god


---- dedicated to my sweet bro .. :D

Expressions

Asphyxiated by the suffocating smell of paper….
With laziness paralyzing my thought
The air around is getting offensive
And playing again those games I had already fought

The world around me seems all gloomy
The roomies turn my head upside down
The peers just seem to be in a race of wits
Pulling the stairs from others’ ground

What should I do that I can please everyone?
What should I do that they understand
That the inner me is not as dark
As their glasses perceive my stand

The pure heart within,
Just wants some joy
Some peace around
And to play with a toy

The heart is gentle like a child
Just desires simple & some tender jibes
Some lovely smiles with cozy hugs
To spread the aura of positive vibes.



But the skeptic dismal world
Breaks all your desires,
Places the stamps of preconceived judgments
And shuns few deserved as defective wires.

Ends all the motivation
One wants for oneself
And dictates the laws of life
To convert each into mere Files on shelf

So the torch bearer of my life
Has herself gone blind
With the fancy signboards all shining around
She’s left the correct path somewhere behind

The veils of confidence though still deceives many
And I get some motivation from outside
But the foolish fools fail to realize
That the biggest motivator is sitting beside


Million questions arise like the tides of a river
And leave the marks on sand
The ebbs may disappear in the crests & troughs
But the troubled mind drills deep in my glands.



But a thought just crossed my twisted mind
That why I get boggled by the external crime?
If the murderer is not on my side.
Then I really have no reason to mime

The innermost trust is what matters the most
Our task in hand is o maintain our true nature
And win the hearts of all not by force
But by exhibiting our composed stature

The positive results may not pour at once
Will take some time to change
By shifting my focus on my own efforts
I can cross the lofty mountain range

So with a new stride and a new song in my heart
I forge ahead on the path of glory
To win accolades of success and joy
And lift the heavy souls through my story.

...........BLANK..............

The world seems blank at times...as if noone can see you, neither can anyone feel u....just numb and blank.....
quite usual feeling that im having these days...coz, of continuously under surveillence of my environment...these things slowly killing my inner instincts....my true me....
al im left wid is..........BLANK.............
there's a famous song in hindi....Kora Kagaz.....i obv wont sing it loud...bt the WHITE brain at tyms does become unfathomable....
the calls to our dear ones simply hav silence....silence ruled by muted shouts n screams.,....under the veil of smiles...smiles so big that ppl interpret u to be a joker...just ridicule the things which they themselves bear...why is it that world bears so much of hypocrisy....why cant ppl simply reflect on their actions....why do they build expectations....expectations that all shud simply give them care, love, attention....bt wat do they give in return....................BLANK...... null....
bt a thot crossed my mind...why am i gttg blogged by the outer world, wen the fight exists within...hmmm....maybe cause v live in a social world, n things outside do effect you....

bt u kno wat, they effect u WEN U ALLOW them to do so....
be so adamant in your life with your thots n ur principles that NO one can fiddle with it....
the weekness within allows others to rule ur life..
thats exactly wat im feeling....prob thats d reason im writing this...infact evn wen i m typping.....my brain giving impulses that i mite be bothering others...welll.....just dump such thots my little brain....

its my focus on the clicks of my keyboard which causes all the havoc in the env...if i feel im troubling them....then obv i m...bt if i fell its ok....then it is....the thots of one CAUSES the rest to happen...so relax my tiny winy brain...

self expression is the best medicine..and i guess im starting ot feel it...

thanks...
16/12/2010

Debt

The "overwhelmed silence" is dominant in me at d present,..
al i need is just calmness and serenity,..
To control my auricles and ventricles 4m being under debt of sum1's gratitude n words....
Words void of alphabets,
Words void of sentences.
Words void of words.
Words of silence strike deeper dan words,..
Dis is the glory of the debt i hav given,..
Debt, worth giving lyf for,
and den dere cums just three lil alphabets,..BUT..
These strike back the silence wid a scream,..
Its an echo of the silent scream,,,
screaming to kno the purpose behind al dat happens,..
purpose behind d pain,..
purpose behind d joys
purpose behind d silence,
purpose behind d screams,
and
purpose behind the silent screams...
yet nothing strikes much as an answer,..
coz this debt itself is void of ne reason dear..
debt,worth giving lyf for..

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NUMB

At tyms, the whole world comes crashing down...and at tyms..life simply becums so numb and blank dat the sensation of the right n wrong grasp is lost/.....this loss, is the most heaviest of all, coz, it denotes a sense of content 4 ones situation, and hampers the channel of growth
The need of the hour is to realise d root cause of this numb n blank nerve,,,and to relinquish the pain by removing it

Goodbye...

The woods are filled

And trees are tall

bt im just lost

In this entire brawl

The heart is screaming

To shout aloud

Bt no one hear

In dis maddening crowd

And den like a star

U c sum1 far

Stretching d hand of company

For once u retreat

Bt den u realize

The soul himself

Is just likewise

So den v screamed

Both loud and clear

And laughed abt

In d dancing world

But den d 1

Just struck a chord…

Was feeling weird

To b shout uproar

Coz he just felt

d urge of silence

d urge to sit

d urge to die

And slowly, he said goodbye

And hence retreated

From d roaring 1

Leaving a question

if I am wrong?

4m d depth of 1's tank

How much he had

Helped d roaring 1

And den dey went

Both apart

Thanking each other

For their part